Amazing Mom Moments

Tonight, we went to visit Momma K and her wonderful hubbie. Little B fell asleep and continued his nap on the car ride and when we got him home. While we watched one of our favorite tv shows - Chuck - we let him continue napping in the car seat. But, the time arrived that we felt like slipping off into dreamland ourselves. So, I carefully got him out of his car seat and changed his diaper with only the hall light on in an attempt to keep him asleep. No such luck. So, I swaddled him tightly and we sat down to rock for a while. As he quietly began to slip into dreamland again, I was amazed at how he looked up to me with his eyes so full of trust and not a care in the world. As I gazed at my little sleeping man, I was filled with such love and wonder at the fact that all I had to do was look at him and everything felt right with my world. It's hard to believe that one little face can make your life feel so full and complete.

With Big E, I never had the blessing of holding her each and every night and knowing that I was the one to soothe her fears. And while each moment that I've spent with her has been a true blessing, I never quite knew the joy of being a mommy in that I'm not that person she looks to first for that security. Over the last three weeks, I have come to know each one of Little B's cries. I know when he's crying because he's hungry it will be a soft cry (unless you're not quick and then it becomes a wail). I know when he wants to be held and loved on he will cry out with little whimpers. I know when he's tired he will start flailing his arms and he will want to be walked, bounced and held close to our chests. I've had the blessing of being an everyday mommy and it is so amazing to be able to look down at our little man and know that I know what he needs and I can take care of him better than anyone else because I know him best. Our children are a blessing. There is something so special about motherhood - whether it be the everyday moments or simply the blessing of knowing you brought a child into the world and gave her the best life that you could at that time. All of these hold special places in a mommy's heart and help bring everything full circle as a mom. Tonight, I am thankful for both my children. I am thankful for the joy and unconditional, amazing love they have graced me with. I love you two!