Valentine's Day

I thought this Valentine's Day was going to be different. You see, this year I didn't feel like shopping or doing anything because quite frankly, my mind is on other things right now. We didn't have a sitter and I still haven't found time to ask around and find sitters that come to our home that I would trust. So, I didn't want to go out because now that we have a schedule for Little B and sleep, I want to stick to it. Well, apparently Little B thought it would be fun to show how he can stay up late for a holiday because he is still being rocked as I type. I started rocking him at 7:40. I've had to put him down twice because I was getting so frustrated and Daddy B has taken over to no avail. He is fussy and squirmy. Daddy B and I have gotten short with each other because of this and the fact that dinner wasn't planned out and ready (we were going to have a special dinner just us) so now it's past bedtime and still no food. I know some will say to keep these intimate details of parenthood and our family quiet, but after over a week of pure turmoil and another failed holiday ending in tears, I can't pretend that this is an easy journey. I really hope we can find more time for our family just the three of us this year and more specifically, Daddy B and I. It is time we are all craving. Holidays and travel and parties and moving has been a lot and we need a break to focus on our little family so we can enjoy the stages of Little B more. They will fly by too quickly!